Day 17 - afternoon

I'm having a bit of a moment. The sight of someone sucking on their pen like a cigarette is making it a bit difficult for me. I'd really like one. Really. It's sweltering in here. Why don't I want to smoke again? Why. Old hollow chest is back. Everything is a bit annoying. Oh to step outside away from everyone. With burning firestick in my mouth. I can't remember why I shouldn't do it. If I hold out I'll have gone a whole week without any tobacco at all. Must be strong. Will eat homemade burgers tonight. Hot bath. Grand theft auto maybe.